The first game of the NFL season was one day after Jackson was born. My husband had gone home for a quick shower leaving Jackson and me alone for the first time. Still overwhelmed, concerned about his health issues, (minor but at the time felt like a dark cloud hanging over us that at any time could become a huge thunderstorm) and trying to understand parenthood and our new journey, I fell back what was comfortable to me, football Sunday. I turned on the Cardinals’ game on in the hospital room and held Jackson explaining it to him. Arizona Cardinals games had become my families time together. We would attend the home games and watch the away games together. At only one day old, Jackson would become a part of this tradition and watch the first game of the season with me. Soon after that day, he would have a pint-sized Cardinals jersey, beanie, and matching socks; he was then and still is the cutest fan ever!
Fast forward a bit over a year, decked out in his full Cardinals ensemble, he attended his first football game and he loved it! Amazingly, he sat through the whole game and watched the field the whole time. As he has grown, his love of football has also grown and he has become a fan. He still loves going to the games and stays fully engaged the whole time. He loves yelling “third down,” cheering, and eating popcorn. And, it was football games on TV that would be the best motivator to get him to stand on his own. Initially, I was a bit nervous to take him because he was so young and because I always get a bit anxious in situations with crowds. It’s basic math, the more people (mixed with alcohol) the greater the chance of one ignorant person saying something stupid and tearing my heart out of my chest and likely, resulting in my whole family being escorted out of the stadium by security. But at the games he is just one of the Cardinals’ fans, yelling and cheering. Ok, so he is the cutest fan there and he has gained some fans of his own. Walking on the concourse with him is a bit like escorting a celebrity. He gets a ton of smiles, some high-fives and several “look how cute he is.”
Although the pursuit of inclusion discussed in this blog focusses primarily on school inclusion, inclusion is a way of life, not a school placement. School inclusion is just one piece of the puzzle and won’t work in isolation from other aspects of life. Inclusion at home and in the community is essential. Parents know their child best and should be able to decide how much their child will be included with their typically developing peers at school. For our family, we believe including Jackson in all aspects of life now is the precursor to him engaging with his community in adulthood i.e. having a job, living independently and/or attending college, whatever makes our son most happy. We want him to grow up in the same world he will live in for the rest of his life. 321 Inclusion celebrates inclusion at all levels: home, school and in the community because all pieces work in conjunction to create a beautiful picture.
Jackson was our first born child so in addition to learning how to parent a child with Down syndrome, we were learning how to be parents in the first place. Because we didn’t have any prior parenting experience, we focused more on getting the parenting part right and less on how to parent a child with Down syndrome. Although we did research on how to help him achieve his personal best, we didn’t treat him differently than we do his younger brother. To us, Jackson wasn’t our son with Down syndrome he was just our son. Parenting him was all we knew about parenthood and for that I am grateful. We took him everywhere and he was fully included in our lives same as any other child would be. Like other parents, we took hundreds of pictures of our baby and he was the center of our universe. The full inclusion way of life easily became how we did things, without thinking about it. From birth, we have treated him the only way we knew how: fully included in all aspects of our lives so when it came time to discuss where he belonged during the school day, it only made sense to us that his school life should match up with his home life and we knew inclusion would be best for him.
Don’t get me wrong, I have had doubts about putting him in a general education classroom…lots of doubts. Even knowing in my heart it is best for him, I still question it. The battle that goes on between my heart and mind is the result of fear. My greatest fear, by far, is that the other kids will make fun of him or not include him. That’s when the thought of him being in a self-contained classroom where all of his classmates would also be delayed sounds pretty darn nice from time-to-time. But the reality is, Jackson lives in the same world as the rest of us and that world, unfortunately, includes a lot of bullies. It is impossible for me to protect him from that (as much as I’d like to live in a bubble or move to an island). So rather than worrying about how I can protect him from the world, I will focus my energy on how to best prepare him for living in it. Like in football, the offensive line can’t protect the quarterback 100% of the time so the quarterback has to work on ways to protect himself so he can stay standing long enough to throw the ball. I will protect Jackson when I can, but more importantly, I will help Jackson gain the skills necessary to thrive in this world on his own. At each step of the way, I will cheer as loudly for him as he cheers at football games. He is the biggest Arizona Cardinals fan and I am his biggest fan!